i didn't even make "the best" list; instead i was clumped in with "the rest."

that's okay.

today i created a crisis and then looked around and noticed that it was imaginary.

i also thought about how i spend too much time trying to figure out what i want.

finally, i wondered if i really am "emotionally unavailable."

and before i made a decision on any of these things, i took off for santa cruz for the night.